Today i took my chances to start again. I am guessing what clicked ...i really dont know...anyways I had many chance to do writing.. because it helped me to relieve stress. My writing is more heart felt than anything, this may not lead me anywhere but it helps me lot. I am often scared to go public or in real terms im scared of people reading me because writing is easliy judged and will form a sort of impression. In the perfect world good is what sells (i dont know who defines good) so we are often struggling hard to keep up a good impression not realising what we are losing in the bargain.